New Skills and Realizations

This Wednesday when I was at early morning Zumba, just as I have faithfully done for over a year now, I was looking in the mirror at my spandex covered body as I was shaking it and I thought, 'wow!  I am jiggly!' And I couldn't get over it, it started making me feel all gross and slightly hideous and song after song I was feeling worse and worse about myself until it hit me.... I was at Zumba, getting a great workout, and I was missing out on so much fun because of my bad attitude!  So I stopped worrying about it and started focusing on having a good time and you know what I realized? I realized that it didn't matter if I was jiggly!  I am trying to be healthy and let's face it I'm Gorgeous!.... or at least I'm trying to convince myself of that.  Honestly I have no reason to feel ugly or fat, besides who has time to be worrying about things like that when there is so much work to be done!

Thursday was Valentines Day, as you all know, and it was a great day!  Garrett and I went out for dinner and ate steak and pie, then we went to the movies and saw Warm Bodies, which I really liked, but honestly the best thing about it all was how happy and loved I felt!

This weekend has had it's ups and downs and it's really been quite rough on me but it's given me time to reflect and I've decided that the problem is I'm so worried about not being "good enough" that I don't let the good sink in.  I rarely enjoy my successes but I feel my weaknesses as serious failures.  And honestly I just can't do that anymore.  I resolve here and how to celebrate the good more, to let every success sink in and feel like a win for team April and for team April Garrett.  No more pushing away the joy and holding in the pain, from now on I will focus on holding onto the joy so that there is no room for the pain to stay.  I have a loving husband, family, friends, and most importantly my Savior on my side, so I know that I can do it!

As for the new skills mentioned in the post title I can now curl my hair with my straightener in under 30 minutes!

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