Confusion

So there is this boy. His name is Eric. I really like him. He really likes me.... actually to be honest he says he loves me. He wants to date me.... and just me. I like this idea. But I do not feel ready. I have enjoyed spending a lot of time with him, he is a way cool guy, and I want to spend more time with him. I just don't think that I am ready to get into a serious relationship right now and he is having a hard time with this. Eric understands where I am coming from but he is putting a lot of pressure on me to commit but I really just can't right now and I don't know what to do. Do I let him go so that he can just move on and not have to deal with me anymore or should I be selfish and make him wait for me to be ready or do I just commit and let things grow that way. I really don't know what to do. I feel good when I'm around him but I still enjoy flirting with other guys, and that is really not fair at all to him. I feel like a terrible person but what can I do? I need advice!

V-day

Valentines day is just around the corner and once again I am single. Not to worry though because my friend Heather Lynn Peterson promised that she would be my valentine so I guess I'm all taken care of. ps in case you didn't know Nathan and I broke up... I'm doing good.... he just has things he needs to work out before he can be in a relationship, we are still friends, and we still like each other but it can't be more than that. Right now I'm sick with a sore throat and ears and my tummy having trouble still! I'm tired of school, I'm tired of stupid boys but I'm still having fun and being happy! Life is still good!

Exciting Life

So I colored my hair as most of you know and have seen but for those that haven't seen there are pictures... yes I was playing with my webcam again. Life is great, I had an awesome winter break, I had to work a lot but having no homework or tests to study for was stellar! Now I am back at school and it looks like I will have an extremely busy semester, I will definitely be writing a heck of a lot more than last semester and it will be intense but I can do it. Who doesn't love a challenge?
Well... Last night was pretty awesome, I know you all thought Nathan Summers and I were official before... but we weren't, no worries that phase is over. He asked me if I would be his girlfriend just last night, and it was super cute.... for the whole story you will have to talk to me ;) So I am now in a relationship where I am not dating other people... I've never done that before. But I'm excited He really is awesome!

Writing because of popular demand

Well you see, a lot has been happening since I last posted but I honestly haven't known what to write. Mostly the events are only things that are to be written in a journal and possibly told in person. But I will now recount two things that happened in the last two days.

Number one.... I have been thinking of getting a Gym membership for some time now and today I went in because Gold's Gym had called me a couple times and I checked it out. Yeah.... despite mom telling me to not let them sell me anything I went for it! I'm excited because now I will have to work out..... If I'm going to be paying for it, then I'm going to take advantage of it. Pretty sure I'm like bff with the guys that were helping me get signed up, somehow after my work out when I went to get my purse I ended up with burrito all over me..... now thats a story.... it was a fun time and I'm pretty excited... working out makes me happy!

Number two.... If you look at the picture very very closely at my arm you will see that there are some pretty sick bruises... yeah.... I have some on my legs too! Pretty sure yesterday at UVU on my way to class I fell down the stairs, well just one stair, ended up on the ground, did a spin, and got back up. HAHA, it was a pretty awesome fall.... still hurting from it but its cool... it makes for an awesome story! Only one girl saw me and she was too nice to laugh, I was most certainly laughing at myself but she just said to me "its a good day right?" and I replied "I love Mondays!"

Well there you go, I posted and I'll try to post more regularily!

I'm a college girl!

Since they done did learn me real good in high school I decided maybe I should try out some college edumacation. So far its going really good. UVU is a little bigger than Timpview but I think I am figuring it out. I have four classes. Math, History, Biology, and Human Development. I like all of my professors so far but I have to admit that my Biology class is quite dull so far... but who knows maybe one day James Price (the teacher) will surprise me and spice things up. I was taking a Public Speaking class but due to the complexity of traveling down 7 flights of stairs and across campus in ten minutes I decided I would take that another semester. I still have a full schedule with 13 credits so I think it will be a good intro to college life. I am excited about this new adventure and I am ready to work hard! And maybe I'll learn to get to bed on time in the process.

My New Job

So I have the coolest job! I work for a company named Chrysalis and I go to a home with four mentally handicapped guys and I get to hang out with them and take care of them and talk to them! I started on Tuesday and yesterday was my first official day. It is so much fun! I have so much to learn from them! Today I am working an extra long shift (2:30pm-12am) and I might be doing it alone because apparently the guy scheduled to work with me sometimes just decides not to show up so it could be an interesting day. I am a little scared for that but I think I can do it! I am so excited to be able to learn from them, I feel like I am actually making a difference in their lives and it is a very good feeling to know what I do is important!

Too many adventures!

So this month of July has been Jam packed with nonstop adventuring! I went camping with David and Heidi and officially decided that I really do enjoy camping! I became a mommy of five for a week while Micheal and Laura and Mom and Dad went off on an Alaskan Cruise! I was Assistant Camp Director for girls camp.... going up as a leader is muchos better than going up as a girl, it was definitely the best year of girls camp ever! And then just this last week Mom, Dad, Kristina, and I went to Zions, Bryce Canyon, and down to see the St. George Temple! wow! good good times! (The pictures are kind of backwards! sorry!)

p.s. someday i will be a water bottle model! look at that form ;)

Oh the beauty of Bryce Canyon!

Zion's on the Emerald Pools Hike

Back to Bryce Canyon

Time to Hike!

You'd the it was the girls who did my hair... no way, that was the other leaders!

Watching a movie!

Jason does love Ketchup..... he'd dip his chip and lick the ketchup a few times before he'd bite into the chip! :D

Carmen Using my camera..... nice angle!

The Whole camping crew

So excited to be out in the woods!

I promise they wanted to cut the wood...... this is not child abuse!