Ok so get this!

So I was talking to Garrett last night..... and I had to know..... so I asked "do you think it would ever be right between us?" and he told me this whole long story about what he had been thinking and feeling the last few days and about how he just wanted me and my love. So I told him that there were things that I would need for it to be right and I think he's going to make it right. The most important thing is that he reaches out to get to know the family, mom and dad specifically, and his plan is to go over and visit. We'll see what happens, I'm not sure how this will all play out but I feel so good right now. I feel smart, strong, close to the spirit, and I still feel great love for him and my family! I feel for the first time in a while that the things that I want and what is right can be the same thing!

Just Not Right

Just in case you haven't already heard Garrett and I broke up today. The last couple days have been a roller coaster of I don't knows and I love you's and in the end I finally figured out it just wasn't right. So today has been a day of ups and downs, my heart is hurting pretty bed but the pain comes in waves. Ultimately I feel good though, I know that this was the right thing to do and I know that the pain will go away! Thank goodness for the Spirit in my life to help show me what to do and give me such hope! Sorry I have not been the best daughter, sister, aunt, or friend the last eight months. I know I've been neglecting my family but you'll be glad to know I'm back.... or I will be when I have fully recovered!

Fun Change and Summertime!

For all those who have yet to see it I am now officially a blond! oooops :) I wanted a change and I have never tried blond before so I thought... why not. The most fun part about it, Garrett colored my hair for me! lol, pretty scary right, good thing I trust him so much!

I'm so excited for this summer I'll be in Maryland on May 1st (this Saturday) and I won't be back for like four weeks! I also am going to be a counselor for EFY, but not just two weeks like I originally thought, I now have six weeks this summer that I'll be there, I'm pretty stoked, I'm going to be a rockin counselor!

This week is finals week so maybe I should be stressing a little more... I just don't feel like it, so I've studied and prepared and I'm hoping that its enough because I'm sooooo ready for summertime! I have a final presentation today and on Thursday I have a music final and a dance final so its not too much to study for, last week was my crazy week this week is just wrapping things up! YAY for vacation time!

It's been a while

I have not blogged in a really long time life is absolutely CRAZY! but still way good. School is insane but I'm staying on top of things but the list of things due by the end of the semester is daunting. There are a lot of opportunities that have come up this semester. I am applying to go on an internship to China teaching children starting next January it is all expense paid and it would be an amazing opportunity so I'm hoping I get it, it is six months long though so its a little scary but I'm thinking it will be worth it. I Interviewed with the Institute people to be on Institute council and I'm pretty sure they are going to put me to work due to the fact that they said "we'll go over everything and we'll for sure put you to work but we're not sure where." This summer I'm for sure going to visit Susann and Frans but I might be nannying out there for them..... its not for sure though so don't tell anyone yet..... Life is exciting for sure! Garrett and I are doing great, everyday holds a new adventure with him and he is so supportive of the things I am pursuing. He is just becoming more and more amazing to me!

We went to St. George with our friends James and Kristen over Presidents Day weekend and had a blast, we cleaned like crazy at Kristen's grandma's house and had fun swimming, adventuring, getting the fire department called on us for having a fire in a fire pit. (the firemen seemed a little disappointed to find us roasting marshmallows when they really wanted to be putting out a fire)

Winter Fun

It was a truly magical Christmas and New Years was one big party. There have been games, dancing, family fun, the most intensely exciting sledding experience ever, and lots of time with Garrett. I've been at work quite a bit but not nearly as much as last Christmas break! It's been a nice vacation from school, I just wish that I didn't have to go back quite so soon!

Thanksgiving in Reno

I went to Reno with Garrett for Thanksgiving break and it was magical! I got to spend nearly every waking moment with him and we really got to know each other even better and it only made me like him more! I am almost positive we are two of the silliest people in the world! He really knows how to make me laugh. Every day was really long but the whole thing was over way too fast! I got home and it all felt like a dream... a wonderful and lovely dream! I must admit that I did miss the family on Thanksgiving and I cannot wait till the Christmas party and if we plan it for the right time then maybe Garrett can come too!

The fancy date

Garrett took me out last night and we dressed up all fancy and went to tucanos the we danced in the moonlight and then read books in borders and finished the evening watching horton hears a who... what a great night!