Ok so get this!

So I was talking to Garrett last night..... and I had to know..... so I asked "do you think it would ever be right between us?" and he told me this whole long story about what he had been thinking and feeling the last few days and about how he just wanted me and my love. So I told him that there were things that I would need for it to be right and I think he's going to make it right. The most important thing is that he reaches out to get to know the family, mom and dad specifically, and his plan is to go over and visit. We'll see what happens, I'm not sure how this will all play out but I feel so good right now. I feel smart, strong, close to the spirit, and I still feel great love for him and my family! I feel for the first time in a while that the things that I want and what is right can be the same thing!

Just Not Right

Just in case you haven't already heard Garrett and I broke up today. The last couple days have been a roller coaster of I don't knows and I love you's and in the end I finally figured out it just wasn't right. So today has been a day of ups and downs, my heart is hurting pretty bed but the pain comes in waves. Ultimately I feel good though, I know that this was the right thing to do and I know that the pain will go away! Thank goodness for the Spirit in my life to help show me what to do and give me such hope! Sorry I have not been the best daughter, sister, aunt, or friend the last eight months. I know I've been neglecting my family but you'll be glad to know I'm back.... or I will be when I have fully recovered!